Insomiac at 3:00am

There are many nights I simply cannot sleep and this one of them..Sometimes I just lay there and let my thoughts take me over..Most times I lay there and meditate on what God is saying to me..

Ever since I was a small child I would have very vivid dreams of things going on in my life at any given time..I would try to suppress them because some were not always good..But then others were simply wonderful..

My children when they finally fall asleep can sleep through anything which is a good..Although Mason still wakes up for a midnight feeding, he generally falls right back to sleep..Michelle has finally started to sleep through the night after 2 years..I thought that day would never come..

I don't think I've actually had an uninterrupted night of sleep since I became a parent..When Melvin was a teenager, I could not sleep until he was home and in bed..He was for the most part really good about keeping his curfew..

My husband is an insomniac as well..I think he is even worse than I am..

I love this time of morning because it's quiet and I can think freely..It's my time to be creative and let my imagination run wild but not careless..I get to focus on my dreams and aspirations and on how I can make them a reality..

I long for the day when I can have a full night of sleep and sweet, sweet dreams to go along with it..

That day will come, but until then I will just be grateful for the quiet time I have with my thoughts all because of my insomnia..